Random...or not so random....Quotes

I am having trouble with focusing enough to blog...so for today I will continue with my Random Quotes, or like I said before maybe not so random! Karen has given me much inspiration today as I almost forgot....thanks girlie, what would I do without you!

" To be yourself in a world that is constantly trying to make you something else is the greatest accomplishment." - courtesty of Mr. Ralph Waldo Emerson

And this one is for my grandmother, who despite our differences was one of the most important people in my life...this is the first time in my life that she is not here on March 26th...her birthday...I miss her greatly and wish I could pick up the phone to call her just to hear her voice....instead I offer her this from afar......

"We cannot change the past, but we can change our attitude toward it. Uproot guilt and plant forgiveness. Tear out arrogance and seed humility. Exchange love for hate - thereby, making the present comfortable and the future promising." - thank you Ms. Maya Angelou

I know this is something she strived for in her life and something she hoped for me....I can only hope one day to be able to acheive it!

Movie Quote Meme Follow-Up

Alright, apparently all my quotes were not as easy as I thought they were....I added new ones...there are four movies left people!!!! Go to it!!

Apparently it Takes Little to Make Me Happy....

This morning I am like a kid on Christmas morning! I got my first international visitor...all the way from Canada!!!! Apparently from what I hear you don't really arrive until you get a hit from Singapore, but for now I am basking in my Canadian glory! Not that I don't love my Internet friends that come to visit me on a daily basis from the good old USA, especially the O-Town area! I do so enjoy my stalkers! But....Canada....it made me happy!

And since I am on the topic of visitors....for the person that googled "how does drama start?" and ended up on my page, at the time I came up as the second choice...thank you very much....for you, my confused visitor, please feel free to leave me a comment with any questions I am sure I could right a whole dissertation for you!

Just had to share my joy with all!

Happy Friday.....Oh and if I don't make it back HAPPY EASTER!

Random Quote Wednesday.....

I enjoy random quotes....sometimes ones that aren't so random....I decided since everyone else has a day for everything I would make myself a Random Quote Wednesday, here we go.....

"Those who know do not speak. Those that speak do not know." _ Lao Tzu, The Tao

This one is courtesy of my hubby, all his martial arts wisdom! However, I have found this to be true over and over!

Just a little add on...well because....

Karma's a bitch...don't screw with her!

....okay, maybe not a random quote but SO true!......

Because I am bored...

My friend Star tagged me for this Meme. She's the new kid on the block and I am currently wasting time since I am home yet again with a small sick child!

Name one thing you do every day:
Bitch and moan, hubby wouldn't know what to do without it!

Name 2 things you wish you could learn:
1. How to create a website...or rather how to write html
2. Another language...except apparently according to the people at UCF I have a learning disability in this area so that might be hard....no really people that's what they told me!

Name 3 things that remind you of your childhood:
1. Dale Hallow Lake in TN...spending my days tubing, sweet!
2. Jelly Sandals...did you see they are making a come back?!
3. Bad perms...don't ask!

Name 4 things you love to eat but rarely do:
1. CPK Roasted Peppers and Goat Cheese Pizza with Applewood Bacon, YUM!
2. Chocolate Eclairs...the ones I make, not the over sweeten crappy store bought ones :)
3. Moussaka, I made it last night and I now remember why I eat it rarely.
4. Tipsy Cake...made with lots of whiskey, Maker's Mark of course, Kentucky girl at heart.

Name 5 things/people that make you feel good:
1. My Hubby, because even when I am wrong he makes me feel like I was right
2. Miss Know It All because she is ME....it's funny to watch, although entirely frustrating
3. Miss Sassy because I know she is capable of so much and she is figuring it out too
4. Lil Miss Drama because of all her hugs and kisses, she still loves me unconditionally
5. My cousin, Ellen, it's amazing when she calls none of the Bull Shit around me really matters
6. (I know people I suck at rules) Phone calls to and drop bys at Karen's house....good to have someone to rely on and occasionally call you on your shit!

If you feel like telling us about yourself, tag you're it!

Movie Quote Meme

Okay so Karen tagged me for this....sounded interesting enough, a good waste of my valuable time that should be spent doing the aforementioned piles of laundry.





Behold, the rules:

• Pick fifteen(or sixteen if you are cool like me) of your favorite movies.


• Go to IMDB and find a quote from each movie.


• Post them on your blog for everyone to guess.


• Fill in the film title once it's guessed.

This part is for the reader:

• No Googling or using IMDB search functions. (Don't be Cheaty McCheater-Face! You can look up those words at Dictionary.com if you must)


• Leave your answer(s) in the comments.

Here we go!

Alright people second quotes for those that were not guessed...these are not hard!!!!

1. Things have certainly changed around *here*. I remember when this was all farmland as far the eye could see. Old man Peabody owned all of this. He had this crazy idea about breeding pine trees. Back to the Future - Courtesy of Mr. Star via Mrs. Star

2. It's because I have these incredible boobs to fill it out!

Can you tell I'm wearing underwear? 'Cause I totally am.

3. The answer to the ultimate question of life, the universe, and everything is...42. Hitchiker's Guide to the Galaxy -Karen

4. I mean, not many girls in contemporary American society today would give their underwear to help a geek like me. Sixteen Candles - Tracy followed closely by Karen

5. Look, spaghetti arms. This is my dance space. This is your dance space. I don't go into yours, you don't go into mine. You gotta hold the frame. Dirty Dancing - again, Tracy followed closely by Karen

6. Ten years. Ten years, man, ten years!!! TEN YEARS!!!

They all have husbands and wives and children and houses and dogs, and, you know, they've all made themselves a part of something and they can talk about what they do. What am I gonna say? "I killed the president of Paraguay with a fork. How've you been?"

7. The only thing we serve here is tongue! You boys like tongue? The Goonies -Karen, finally!

8. Excuse me. Have you seen The Feminine Mystique ? I've lost my copy. 10 Things I Hate About You -Karen

9. Hey, look. "Esc-a-pay". I wonder what that means? That's funny, it's spelled just like the word "escape." Finding Nemo - Karen...it's about freaking time!!

10. Person1: What the hell am I looking at? When does this happen in the movie?
Person2: Now. You're looking at now sir. Everything that happens now, is happening now.
Person1: What happened to then?
Person2: We passed then.
Person1: When?
Person2: Just now. We're at now, now.
Person1: Go back to then!
Person2: When?
Person1: Now.
Person2: Now?
Person1: Now!
Person2: I can't.
Person1: Why?
Person2: We missed it.
Person1: When?
Person2: Just now.
Person1: When will then be now?
Person2: Soon.
Person1: How soon? Spaceballs -Karen, by the way, hubby is impressed

11. On a more personal note Beatrice, Edgar ran off with an old girlfriend, you're gonna go stay with your mom a couple nights then realize you're better off.

I go out, I work my butt off to make a living, all I want is to come home to a nice clean house with a nice fat steak on the table, but instead I get this. It looks like poison. Don't you take that away, I'm eating that, damn it. It is poison, isn't it? I swear to God I would not be surprised if it was, the way you skulk around here like a dog that's been hit too much or ain't been hit enough, I can't make up my mind. You're useless, Beatrice. The only thing that pulls its weight around here is my goddamn truck.

12. I'm disinclined to acquiesce to your request. Means "no".

Fortunately, I know how to counter it; the man who did the waking buys the man who was sleeping a drink; the man who was sleeping drinks it while listening to a proposition from the man who did the waking.

13. I have since heard of people under extreme duress speaking in strange tongues. I became conscious that a steady torrent of obscenities and swearing of all kinds was pouring out of me as I screamed. A Christmas Story - Karen

14. The intruders are leaving, but others will come. Sometimes we'll sense them. Other times, we won't. The Others - Karen, damn it, I need to quit talking to you about movies I love!! :)

15. Are you blind its a lonely tear drop! Cry Baby - Karen, I shouldn't have given you that hint :)

16. Depends on the topic. My fenders don't exactly whip me into a verbal frenzy! 10 Things I Hate About You - Karen....and yes, I did put two of these on here because I love the movie that much!

And go!

RIP Bob...

So for Miss Sassy's 8th bday one of her friends bought her hermit crabs, yes, the mother did ask before buying them, apparently I was too doped up on crack, just an expression people, that day and said okay. Anyhow, I assumed the hermit crabs had a short lived life, shouldn't be a big deal, right? As Miss Sassy was busy looking at her new pets I was busy reading the outside of the box for their new home, apparently these nasty little creatures live up TEN years, are you freaking kidding me? The mother who bought these did not inform me of this, is it too late to give them back?...."Mommy, this one is Bob and this one is Melissa"...aw, hell, she gave them names already, they now belong to lucky old us, for up to ten years, meaning they will die right before she goes to college, somewhere God was laughing at me that day!

That was six months ago...honestly, the creatures don't bother me that much anymore because I never see them, they hide ALL the time. And really they make no noise compared to the squeaky wheel of the hamster cage, the crying of the two cats, the barking of the dog, the constant fan noise from the fish tank and the loud yelling for the three children, they really were becoming more and more likeable every day, as long as they stay in their cage!

Then yesterday morning the inevitable happened, we hear a very loud cry though our bedroom door at 7:20am, "BOB is dead"! Still very drowsy, hubby and myself look at one another, let the news set in for a moment, smiled a little more than we should, jumped out of bed to comfort Miss Sassy. We go to said cage, there are what appears to be pieces of Bob strewn about the cage, large claws, small shreds, it's not pretty. Hubby hands me the pieces, we put them in a cup. We then explain to Miss Sassy that one of two things may have happened, one there is NO water in their cage, possibly a problem, or two Melissa decided to rip apart and eat Bob, well we said it nicer. Miss Sassy swore she saw Bob still in his shell, just really hidden, we discounted this with a look of "I don't think so." She asked to leave his shell in the cage, sure, why not!

Miss Sassy was VERY upset, she is an animal lover, wants to be a vet, she took it hard, I emailed her teacher to let her know that Miss Sassy may have a hard day. Her teacher is an amazing woman, she pulled Miss Sassy aside and gave her lots of love, a stuffed animal and made her feel better, she herself is an animal lover and understood, unlike me, "it's a damn hermit crab!" Okay, maybe I wasn't that mean, but I was thinking it!

Miss Sassy came home from school, wanted to bury Bob, or what was left of him. I told her we would tomorrow, now today, I am great at putting things off! This morning as I was finishing writing the blog before this about cleaning (btw, I had planned on cleaning the crab cage yesterday while she was in school, never got to it), I hear another yell from the top of the stairs "Mommy, BOB is ALIVE!" What, you say? Needless to say, I go upstairs again, thinking Miss Sassy is now hallucinating. Except I'll be damned Bob's shell was moving! Oh, Melissa had to have just moved to Bob's shell, except she is in her shell too! WTH....Bob is alive, I can't find his claws, as he is hiding again, but he is alive. Obviously Miss Sassy is now ecstatic...."I told you he was still in his shell, you didn't listen to me." Damn, kid, when did she go and get so smart! So no burial for Bob, apparently we have another 9 years and 6 months together, oh the joys!!!

Did I mention....?

Have I mentioned yet how much I despise laundry? Wait, let me add to that...have I mentioned yet how much I hate cleaning....anything? Don't get me wrong I love things to be clean...I just find myself incapable to making such things happen in my house unless of course a guest is coming over then there is the 24 hours straight of cleaning to make house presentable.

I blame this all on my mother, please note that I no longer speak to my mother for a variety of reasons, the main reason being she is CRAZY! But past being crazy she is OCD, when I was lived at home everything was meticulous...oh, don't think it's because she did it, oh no, the minute I turned 12 all cooking, cleaning, laundry, ironing and general household upkeep became my job, but really I am not spiteful about this I promise! Anyhow, everything had a place, knick knacks had a precise placement, chairs had to be lined exactly the "right" way, the towels had to be folded and lined up properly, because well you never know when someone might show up at our door and want to buy our house, wouldn't want the linen closet to look out of whack...btw, actual words out of my mother's mouth, just the tip of the iceberg for CRAZY!! I used to take great joy in walking through the living room moving knick knacks just a half an inch to watch her come through later and fix every last one....hell, that still makes me laugh!

Back to blaming my mother, see I figure after spending 18 years living in the repression that was my house I had two options when I moved out...continue to be OCD like her or let everything go to hell in a handbasket. Needless to say I chose the hell in a handbasket, which at first was not a big deal, only me in my apartment, cleaning was a snap when it needed to be done. Then hubby moved in, I acquired his laundry because see he was on Orientation Team, the people who show all the newbies at college around the campus, help them sign up of classes, etc. How could he be expected to handle his laundry, there was no free time...so good girlfriend, at the time, that I was I helped. Then came along Miss Know It All, why didn't anyone tell me that such small little creatures could create so much filth and clothing to wash! Then came Miss Sassy, or should I say Miss I Need to Change Clothes TEN Times a Day and Then I Will Throw Them on the Floor and Never Pick Them Up....UGH! Last we added Lil Miss Drama....she currently lives in dress up clothing, that she feels need to have a smattering of yogurt or pudding added to on a daily basis, and of course you can't put dress up in the dryer! Then there are all the toys that come with before mentioned children, I want to scream!! Oh yeah, not to mention the two cats and one very fluffy, furry dog. And you people wonder why I don't want to clean!!!

So now, back to the laundry, did I mention I hate laundry? I currently can't see my bathroom floor, the bottom of the stairs and the girls bathroom floor is disappearing fast. Yesterday I figured since I was stuck at home with a sick child again I would make use of the time and yes, DO laundry, BLAH!! So I did, got quite a few loads done, folded neatly, because see I do still believe in folding neatly, especially the towels because you never know when someone might need to look in my linen closet, not that they could open it past all the shit sitting in front of it, but really if they do manage to open it, it should look neat!

Anyhow, as I was sorting said laundry yesterday while talking on the phone to Karen I became VERY excited....the damn check card I lost last week was found, in a pair on tan capris that I wore 11 days before. Why do I know this, because also in those pants were two screws from the huge spiderweb prop that Miss Sassy's dance team uses that I helped take out of the prop truck on March 3rd! Yes, I know it's not right that those pants have sat dirty on the floor of my bathroom for 11 days, just don't ask what else is buried under them! Put it this way one year for his bday hubby asked for 20 pairs of new boxers....that should tell you way more information than you ever needed to know about me....and I will leave it at that!

I think...well, maybe....

I suddenly find myself in a blogging mood...had one all ready to go and now I changed my mind...well, that has now become the point of this one. If my first name is DRAMA my middle name has to be INDECISIVE!!!

This is an affliction that has effected me for a long time, it is a large complaint of my husband's. Don't get me wrong I am great at the day to day stuff. I make the dinners choices, what the girls will wear to school (sometimes this is unsolicted..refer to "Did you...?" blog, you will understand why), etc. My problem lies in other areas....for example...restaurants....I just can't decide, unless I am really in the mood for CPK, then discussion is over! I figure I make the dinner choices all the time, I should get to bail on this one, this normally ends in a frustrating converstation in the car with a "fine, we will just go (fill in the blank with the restaurant we are currently closest to)." After 12 years one would think I would just learn to make the choice to avoid this scenario, however I am sure by the end of this weekend it will have taken place again.

Then come the real kind of indecisive issues....most of my friends know this about me....in certain aspects of my life I am waiting for the other shoe to drop. Primarily in regards to my house....UGH!!! See in the 12 years I have been with my hubby we have lived together in at least 9 places, no we are not a military family, my hubby has worked for the same company for 7 years and we have lived in our house for 5 years. This all sounds nice and stable...but because of our early years moving around I am always afraid of the next big move. So as a result we have lived in the same place for five years and I can't make a decision in the house without the internal conversation about how it would effect the resale value, or what happens when we decide to more. I have now put of getting a pool for four years...at this point I am going put the damn thing in and we WILL move!! See my husband gets this about me, it makes him insane though. Last summer he gave me an ultimatium build a pool or move to another house that has a pool, I guess he wants a pool. Well seeing as it is now March and not a single pool contractor has walked onto my property I guess I showed him! Except then he did the unexpected, he gave up....said for me to change everything else I wanted to in the house, damnit, now I want the freaking pool! Reverse Psychology, it's a bitch!

Maybe I will start calling around, get some quotes, maybe.....

Rebuilding....

Too much of my time lately has been spent dealing with irritations that I have focused too much energy on, I have dwelt too long, let things seep too deeply into my veins, thought about things too much...considering it's all supposed to be irrelevant.

Today I am rebuilding walls....see I let my walls be torn down in the name of friendship, or so I thought. Have you ever met someone, knew that you weren't likely to be friends but then because of circumstances proceeded anyways? I did...not with nearly enough caution. And the problem is I have done it multiple times, every time ending with me kicking myself in the ass. Then there are the friendships where things were good and something went terribly awry. Those are the ones that hurt the most....the ones that you want to fix but sometimes just can't. And there is always the friendships that you desire but they have yet to come together. See, too much thought....

Anyhow, I proceeded, I let people in, I wish I could take it back. I don't trust easily and now that my trust has been squashed, stomped on, spit all over and handed back to me in a brown paper bag, I am pissed! Pissed at myself mainly, I let the walls be torn down, what was I thinking, that little pit in my stomach told me better, I wanted to be wrong. So today I find myself with a decision to make...continue to let it irritate me and eat away at my stomach or say FUCK IT, time to move on....I am choosing option #2. I am writing all this down as a affirmation to myself that I made a choice, picked a path, time to follow it. Be clear, I am writing this not to open a can of worms with anyone out there but rather I am closing it and burying the can....I am finished, too much of my life has been consumed by meaningless crap and worrying about what people that are not a part of my life think about me....done. Not to say that I won't get irritated, that is just part of my nature, but as of now it will not be part of who I am....it's just taking up too much space....space that is needed for the important things in life...like my family!

To be Honest....

I am holding it together....by a thread.....it's been a long week, for that matter a long month. As much as I enjoy hiding behind all my snide comments and sarcasm I'm at breaking point today. I am tired of trying to be nice to people who hate me, I am tired of trying to right any wrong I may or may not have done, I tired of people talking shit behind my back, mostly I am tired of censoring myself on my own blog....I am done with it!

Take it for what it's worth people...I'm having a shitty day! Thanks for tuning in.

Flaws...

I am a person of many flaws, I accept and embrace them most days. Today I am thinking about one flaw that I am not so proud of....I SUCK at maintaining friendships!

I am blessed to have friends that understand this about me for the most part and they are good with it, or at least pretend to be. I don't call, I don't email, I am ALWAYS late with presents...so one would ask...why be my friend? Well I am a loyal to a fault, I am there when truly needed and I really do love those close to me.

I bring this up because it was brought to my attention in two different forms this week. I will start with the one from today...I received a message on my myspace from a newer friend, one that I do enjoy, married to my best friend, who happens to be of the male gender. See she wrote me a month ago....I still haven't written back...yes, I know I should be doing that instead of writing this but that is the point. The response is one that requires time, energy and quiet...none of those things happen often in my house, they are truly rare moments. It's not that I don't want to write back, but this is a new friendship, I am not sure if I can make room for a new friendship right now...how do I say that? How do I tell someone that wants to be my friend that I can't keep up with the ones I have? This, this blog, is how I am currently doing that, if you want to know what is going on in my life...read my blog, how sad is it that I can only find time to talk to friends in mass now!

Second incident is a bit more telling....I have a friend, a VERY good friend, she lives 45 minutes away, I see her about 2-3 times a year. The last time I saw her was the first of December at her house. While there my child lost her shoes, yes, she has a huge house! Anyways, just before Christmas she found the shoes, left me a message telling me. I had every intention of calling her back, my intentions are always good. Needless to say I didn't. It is now the first of March...I look out my window, DHL truck, don't see them too much here, no doorbell, must not have been for me. Hubby went out an hour later, there was a package on my doorstep, I look at the sender, it was my friend, what could she have possibly sent me? It's like Christmas only late....aw, yes, that's right, THE SHOES.....no note, just the shoes, message received, I SUCK!!! And just as my life goes things only got funnier in the fact that the shoes no longer fit the small child that lost them!

It was my resolution this year to make more time for the people that matter, yet here it is March and I have spent more time dealing with irrelevant people and irrelevant circumstances, getting frustrated instead of relaxing with the ones that I truly want to spend my days with! As I have said before the first step is acknowledgement....where do I go from here? Perhaps off to write that letter and call my friend to let her know...shoes and message both received!

Oh....My Head Hurts....It Just....Hurts......

Who knew?

Today I am finding it hard to blog, normally I am blogging out of frustration, see that is the point of some blogs, mine in particular. Yesterday I had tons to blog about...tons, then my husband hijacked my computer, note that he has two in his office that work just fine, mine however was more convenient for his purposes. So now I find myself trying to refresh my memory!

We will start with my very LONG weekend. It was competition weekend again. I dreaded it all week, waiting for the drama to unfold as we arrived at the show. If you have read my blog at all you will know that part of my blog's point also is to answer the question that plagues me on a daily basis, how much drama do I create in my life and how much just appears, like a little leech, sucking me dry. I was prepared to be bloodless from the leech that would surely suck me dry at this event!

Guess what.....nothing, that's right folks, nothing!! It was fun, the kids did awesome! I remained drama free, minus pulling half of my daughter's hair out trying to put it in braided buns, I don't do well with hair under pressure, not my speciality! My hubby did drive home the 26', yes I did say 26 foot, prop truck, but that was his choosing, he was trying to be the nice guy and help out the team! Our director even won a cruise, yup, a cruise, because the kids danced so well, to his choreography of course, which is amazing!

We stayed with family which I figured for sure would cause some chaos, but again NOTHING! It was great, we all enjoyed each other, it was relaxing! Huh, go figure! Who knew I would actually start having fun at these things!!!

I guess it's like they say a watched pot never boils.....ah....but then hell, what am I suppose to complain about!!

Random thought....

Blame. Blame is a strong word, before one starts throwing around such a word one should remember the saying...those that live in glass houses should beware of casting stones!

Just the random thought for the day!